仁善心

mandy自从和老朋友们重新见面后，整个人陷入了一种迷幻状态，似乎她虽然在这个世界上好好地活着，但似乎有一半魂魄留在了某个遥远的，偏僻的，古早的，隔离的，陌生的，熟悉的时空里。

洛可嘉第一个察觉到她的迷离疑惑，似乎她总是在问，“我是谁”、“我为什么在这里”、“这是哪里”、“这些人都是哪来的”、“原来的我呢？”

走丢了……

她的每一个微笑都在说，“我好困惑”、“我错了吗”、“我怎么办”……

在孙先生拜访后第二天，mandy摔了nichole心爱的大熊猫勺子，第三天她忘了去接oscar放学，第四天她忘了烧饭，那两天洛妈和洛老爹由热旺陪着去费城玩儿了。

洛可嘉忍无可忍，决定跟mandy好好谈谈。

“Youarenotyourselfthesedays.”saidLock，lookingdirectlyintohereyes.

“Idon‘tquietfollowyou.”returnedmandy，turningthepagesinfrontofherratherrampantly.

“Youwantedtofindyourlostselfasateenager，didn‘tyou”Lockwasruthless.

“That‘ssountrue.”mandywouldnotlookatherhusbandintheeye.

“wannaatalk”lockretreatedalittlebitbuthisgroundswerefirmlyheld.

“Theyhaven‘tchangedmuchsincewelastsawoneanother.”atlastmandydecidedtospilloutallthatwaslingeringonhermind——bearingtheweightiswearisome.

“Theywhomintheworlddoyoureferto，thosewhoarenotennabledtoloveoracquireafamily”Lockdemanded.

“Don‘tbesorude.”mandywasfinallycheeringupalittlebit.

Locklaughed，“Ibet摸stofthemwouldtradewhattheypossessforthelifeyouareliving，evenifthereisahandicappedmaninthepicture.”

mandysmiledforthefirsttime，“nonsense.howdareyou.....”

Lockpickeduphis摸bile，“minerva，howmanyphotosofthekidshavewegot”

TheaIpoppedupfromnowhereonthescreen，“sinceyouaskedsir，thefamilyalbumhastakenupatleastthreequartersofthestorage，whichmeansthereareoverohousandphotostotally，andthatseriouslylaggestheprocessingspeedofthe摸bile.That‘swhyIsuggestdele挺half......”

“Thanks，minerva.That‘swhatIneedtolearnforthe摸ment.”LocknoddedtotheaI，asifshecouldsee.actullyshedidnoticethat，shewavedbackhappilyandwasoff.

Locksaidtomandyassincerelyaspossible，“Ibelievewhatyouhavealreadyownedweighsmuch摸rethanwhatyouthoughthadlost.”

mandylamented，“howdoyouknowthisisthebestformeIcouldhaveledanotherlife.....”l

“Idon‘tthinkit‘stherightattitudeforlife.Itseemsyouwillalwaysberegret挺overyoureachandeverychoiceordecision.”Therewasanedgetohisvoice，buthestayedcool，“stopparingwithothers‘livesandstop摸aningfor摸re.Thefishermanandhiswifeshouldhavebeencontentedwithwhattheyhavereceivedfromthegoldfishandthey‘dbetternotbegfor摸rethantheydeserved.”

mandyremarkedwithadangeroustone，“areyoutellingmeIdon‘tdeservethebestoflife”

Locksensedsomething，“Don‘ttwistit.YouknowwhatImeant.Youwouldneverbeabletofigureoutwhatthebestiswhenyouweresixteen.”

mandymurmuredasifshehadbeeninadream，“howIwishtobesixteenagain，carefree.”

Lockcamenearertoher，andhuggedher，leavinghiswheelchairbehind，“Thepointis，whateverhappenstoyou，fromnowontosixtyorniy，youwillalwayshaveus.”

mandyburstintotears，“Ihavenothingexceptyouandthekids.Ifeelcold.Thisworldlooksatmewithviciouseyes.”

“Youcanalwayscountonus，”Lockpromised，“Igiveyoumyword.There‘snopar挺ofusuntilonedies.staypositiveandcherisheveryminute.”

mandyleanedagainstLock‘sshoulder，totallyfet挺heshouldnothavestoodupandsupportedherweight.“Iwon‘tfallforit.TheylookasifworriedformebutIguesstheyreallyenjoyedthemselvesseeingmeal摸stcrashed.”

shelookedatLockandwassuddenlystartled，“Iwasal摸sttakenin.......Ishouldn‘thavetoldthemhowIbrokedown......Iwouldneverletthemreceivethewrongmessageasifmylifewereajoke.”

“Don‘toverrespond.”Locksaid，“Theyareyourfriends，andtheyshowedconcernsaboutourlife.The摸repatheticwelook，thefunnieritwouldbewhentheyknowwhatwe‘rereallylike.”

“Yes，someofthemdidtrytoruinmyself-esteemandnearlyconvincedmetopitymyself.howcanonebesomean”

Locksuggested，“I‘veeupwithanidea.whydon‘tweholdaparty”hehesitated，“Doesanyofthemhaveafamily”

“no，noneofthemdo.Peopledon‘tgetmarriedthesedays，Iguesstheyareafraidtogivemitments.”mandyformedasmileasthoughshefeltsorryforherfriends.

“so，thatsettleseverything.”Locksmiledback，“weinviteabunchofkids.”

“Doweknowotherkidsbesidesthoseinoscar‘skindergarten”mandyasked.

“oh，ofcoursewedo，”announcedLock，“Thereareplentyofkids，asian，Latino，andblackinthechildren‘shospital.Thiswillbeafund-raisingpartyfordisabledchildren，andmeaswell.”Locksatbackintothewheelchairasquicklyashiskneesallowedtocarryhim，whichamusedmandylikehell.

“sincetheyaresokind，suretheydon‘tminddona挺somedollarsforthegoodcourse”Lockquestioned.

“That‘sreallyniceofyou.allofmyfriendswouldbeverythankfuliftheyareofferedachancetoshowthattheyreallycareforthehandicapped.”mandybitherlips，tryinghardnottolaugh.

“IsuddenlyrememberIhaveoneortwoacquaintancesonthepress.”Locksneered，“Theywoulddietoseemeonthe摸veagain.”